I don’t always immediately recognize when I’m powerless over something, but I do recognize when my life (and my thinking life) become out of control. When I’m feeling off my spiritual center, it’s time to look around and uncover what I’m holding on to that doesn’t belong to me.
My peace of mind will continue to be disrupted if I continue to try to get my way–indulging my ego, my pride, and set out to change other people, places, or things.
When I accept I am powerless over others, I am more able to bring my will into alignment with my Savior’s. I gain peace and humility, and in humility I become spiritually teachable.
But I am human, and being human is not a defect of character. Sometimes I need to go through the experience of struggling with something or someone before I become willing to surrender the problem–and myself–to the love and guidance of my Savior.
The pain is not in the letting go. The pain is in the struggle.
I am Mitch Mayne. I am an openly gay, active Latter-day Saint.
I was raised in Idaho, and baptized into the Mormon Church when I was eight. I left the church for many years, due in large part to my parent’s divorce. In my mid-20s, I returned to the church of my own accord, knowing full well that I was gay, and that someday I would have to find a way to reconcile my sexual orientation with my faith.
For many years, I was fractured: I believed I was a man with a foot in two worlds, and that I belonged in neither. But as I’ve grown in my testimony of my Savior and my confidence in who I am, I’ve come to understand myself as a man with a foot in two worlds–who very much belongs in both. From August 2011 through November of 2013, I served as the executive secretary of the bishopric of the Bay Ward within the San Francisco Stake.
I currently remain an active, happy and whole gay Mormon–just the way I am.